Friday, February 24, 2012

"You, have pointed out my flaws again as if I don't already see them.

"When you try your best but you don't succeed.
When you get what you want, but not what you need.
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep.
Stuck in reverse.
And the tears come streaming down your face when you lose something you can't replace."

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Men's Hearts Shall Fail Them

"Men's hearts are failing--and that includes women--because they forget their identity and their purpose."

"Be patient with yourself. Perfection comes not in this life, but in the next life.
                         Don't demand things that are unreasonable, but demand of yourself improvement."

"As you let the Lord help you through that, He will make the difference."

--Elder Russel M. Nelson

Friday, February 10, 2012


I hate people.
I really do. 
I also love them.

Especially the ones that seem to pop out of no where and completely turn around your awful attitude and forget all the stupid people that make you feel worth nothing. The ones that simply seem to make you smile. And laugh. In the most genuine way. 

Yupp. I like those people. A whole bunch.

But, most of the time, they have no idea what they've done for me. 

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Sometimes people do things for you without realizing what they're doing.

Some days feel alone
                            on your own
                                           like a rolling stone.
A perfect waste of a perfect day.
Some days feel like chores,
                           you get more than you bargained for.
(A heavy plate for one to undertake.)

I hate to say "I told you so," but I just thought I'd let you know...
Some days, they taste like lemonade.
Some days, they feel like razor blades.
(I wish I could float away some days.)      
Some days smell like Spring,
                                     birds, they sing,
                                                Jasmines blossoming. 
Everything, oh, it's everything. 
Sometimes things can seem evergreen
                                                  like a T.V. screen.
                                    "Reality" is reality.

I hate to say "I told you so," but I just thought I'd let you know...

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

"I'm never gonna catch my breath,
               Say 'Goodbye' to those who knew me..."
Ooooh Mulan. 

Sunday, February 5, 2012

Social Norms

Every once in a while I break social norms.
That's just 'cause I'm a freak of nature though. 
However, there happened to be a special occasion; my psychology student teacher devised an assignment to do just that. After a lot of suggestions I decided on one. 

Scene: Cold Stone; my older sister, her daughter, myself, and my mother

In front of a group of friends, I followed behind my sister as she placed her orders. 
worker: What would you like?
me: Just one scoop of strawberry cheesecake.
worker gets a large scoop, makes the ice cream dance, tosses it high into the air and gracefully catches it in a "like it" size cup. 
me: uh...shifts uncomfortably can I...? looks towards my mom, then back at the worker
       Can I just get it in my hand...?
worker: bewildered; gestures the cup towards me
me: Yeah, no, I just want it in my hand..I'm sorry, it's just, I don't know where your cups have been, and I just really want it in my hand. 
worker: Oh, you just want me to make you another one? 
me: Yeah, if that's okay. I'm sorry.
worker gets another scoop, and hesitantly offers it to my hand. As it drops, I smile appreciatively. 
me: thank you. 

And just like that, I walked off towards the cash register, ice cream in hand. 
The guy ringing us up angled his face towards my sister, but kept eyeing me as if trying to understand something. 
I don't know why. 

My sister finally  made me put in an extra cup she'd managed to get when converting the holder of my niece's ice cream to a cone. Probably a good thing though, considering I had succeeded in making a mess of melted ice cream as it dripped from my hand to the floor, leaving a Hansel and Grettle trail to our table---which was also covered in the delicious ice cream. Oh, and also because somewhere through the course of that experiment, my hand had frozen. I mean, literally frozen. The places exposed to the ice cream were totally white. I now am experiencing the joy of freezer burn. 
I must say, I never truly appreciated how many nerve endings were in the tips of my fingers and just how sensitive they were until they were mildly damaged.